Tiger Nails

Finally I'm posting some new nail designs again. Okay, this design is over a month ago, but somehow I didn't manage to post the photos earlier. They don't look very professional, in fact, they are snap shots. This design resulted from too much boredom at the nail studio, haha. So don't take it seriously and just enjoy the pictures.

Tiger Stripes Nails

Role Model (Vorbild)

You have to work on yourself and strengthen your personality to be able to influence people. If you want to teach or change someone to be a better person you have to improve yourself at first. Because the majority of our society likes to blame other people first and critizes your faults and mistakes instead of listening to you. Even if what you've said is the best solution. I had to learn it the hard way. This makes me sad. They don't realize they're missing a chance to learn something new. 


It doesn't matter if the person who critizes you made a thousand mistakes in their life or can't do it better than you. It also doesn't matter if this person is a murderer, a maniac or a person of high standing. What really matters is the content of what they tell you. You have to separate between what's being said and the person themselves. This is the only way to learn efficiently. If you only listen to people who've reached the status of a role model you won't get far.


Well, I'm trying my best to reach my goal. I'm looking forward to that day when the people look up to me so that I can share all the things I've learned to make this a better world - for themselves and for everyone.

Vorbild

Du musst an dir selbst arbeiten und deine Persönlichkeit stärken, um Leute beeinflussen zu können. Wenn du jemandem etwas beibringen oder ihn verändern möchtest, musst du zuerst dich selber verbessern. Denn die Mehrheit unserer Gesellschaft schiebt gerne die Schuld auf andere, bevor sie selbst ihre Fehler zugesteht. Diese Menschen kritisieren dich zuerst, anstatt auf dich zu hören, sogar wenn das, was du gesagt hast, die einzig beste Lösung ist. Das musste ich auf eine schmerzhafte Weise erfahren. So etwas macht mich traurig. Sie realisieren nicht, was für eine Chance ihnen entgeht, etwas Neues zu lernen.


Es spielt überhaupt keine Rolle, ob die Person, die dich kritisiert, selbst tausend Fehler begangen hat oder es nicht besser machen könnte als du. Es macht keinen Unterschied, ob es ein Mörder, ein Irrer oder eine hoch angesehene Person ist. Denn was wirklich zählt ist der Inhalt, das was sie dir beibringen wollen. Du musst zwischen den Personen und dem Gesagten unterscheiden können, um dich weiterzubringen Sonst kommst du nicht weit, wenn du dich selber nur auf Menschen begrenzt, die schon etwas im Leben erreicht haben und du deswegen auf sie hörst.


Nun, ich gebe mein Bestes, um mein Ziel zu erreichen. Ich will ein Vorbild sein, jemand zu dem man aufschaut. So werden die Leute mich mehr respektieren und mir zuhören.  Ich werde diese Welt zu einer schöneren machen, für sie und für alle anderen.

No friends anymore

Recently I had to experience some unpleasant things... Ok, it's been about 3-4 weeks ago, but it's still bothering me. Do you know how it is when you've thought they were one of your closest friends all these years? They don't have to be close, maybe just good friends. The point is, you believed you would still be important to them although you haven't talked for a very long time. Because you believed that this distance wouldn't affect your friendship. 
How naive I am. Sometimes I think I'm too attached to the people I love or like because I still care about them...


So why have I drawn this conclusion? You know, I threw a party at the beginning of May, right? One or two weeks ago I contacted a few friends on facebook and asked them if they like to come to my birthday because I'd be very happy to see them. Some of them didn't answer me. One friend which was called my "best" friend during my childhood replied to me two days ago that she couldn't come to my party on Friday. The party was on Saturday. I didn't mention it and just said that it's so sad that she couldn't come. She wasn't interested at all to visit me. But answering is better than not answering even if that person is lying.Those friends really disappoint me. Once so close and caring, promising that they would be there for me, but in the end they don't give a shit about you. Sorry for this vulgar expression, but this is how it is.

Doing Sport

So I started about 5 weeks ago to work out every morning for 15-20 minutes. I start with 60-80 sit-ups and I have to say the exercises are worth it. I have muscles at the upper part of the body! You know, this is a really great success for me because in fact I'm thin but I've never done a lot of sports. So I've never looked ... athletic/ fit (?). I don't know how to say in English haha. Whatever, I was and still am the soft type of person, on the inside and on the outside. Now I want to change this though.


Oh I have to go to university now, I'm running late.

Missing someone isn't about...

Party Dresses

 As I promised, here they are!

Violet Cocktail Dress with Golden Glitter

Blue Cocktail Dress with Flowers

Last, but not least: My favorite until my father brought me the other one. I still like it very much. I hope I can get another opportunity to wear it soon.

Glittering Black Party Dress

My Birthday Dress

One week before my party started, I had bought some dresses at TJ Maxx to see which one fits the best. The dresses I didn't want to wear at the party I would return to the store of course. But then my dad came back to Germany and gave me this wonderful cream-colored dress. I wasn't sure if I should wear this one or the glittering black dress. But a friend of mine recommended me the bright one because the birthday girl should be the shiniest person at her birthday. And it was really a good choice. You can see it yourself.

Soon I will post the photos of the other dresses from TJ Maxx.

Stupid things

Why do I always have to do stupid things? It seems that the day I turned 20 didn't change anything at all. Moreover I'm acting like a child more than ever. It's so ironic that I celebrated my 20th birthday so big. I really believed naively that that would be my great day, more meaningful than the 18th birthday because with 20 years you're not a child anymore but rather a young adult. It doesn't apply to me though...


I hate myself for causing so much stress for my mum. It's hurting her... But then I noticed, just sitting there and thinking about all the things I've done wrong recently, won't get me anywhere. All I can do is trying to do it better from now on. I have to work on my personality and self-reliance. I want to be a person my mum is proud of. That doesn't mean I only want to change because of her. More importantly I'm doing this for me. It's just that my mum has given me and is still giving me so much, I want to return everything back she gave to me.


Don't worry, Mum. All this hard work will be worth it. Just be patient for a while.

My Birthday Presents

I've got so many awesome things, I'm so happy! But the most important gift are my friends. Thank you all for making it the best and amazing party I've ever had in my life! There was this moment when I was just feeling happy, nothing else. You can say, it was pure happiness. I can't quite remember the last time when I was this glad.

I love this heart necklace

Lovely Greeting Card

The headphones are so awesome! I wanted some good ones for so long.

I love you, guys!

Oh, one gift isn't in the photos. Not because I don't like it. It's a portrait of myself and the truth is, it's so amazing and it really looks like me, almost like a photo so I couldn't hide my identity if I put it in here. Seriously. I'm still fascinated by his skills. He truly deserves some respect.


Oh man, I still have to take photos of all my new clothes... I try to be on time, haha.

Smile

Thanks for this cute birthday gift. It really reminds me of you because you seem to smile all the time, haha. And I truly do like your smile.