Awkward

It's so awkward between us, I don't know how to handle this.

There was this boy I've met for two months. In the end we were kind of together, but not really. It was something between friendship and love. Three months ago I told him that I just wanted to be friends with him because I knew he waited for me until I was ready for a relationship. I made him angry but the worst part is that I hurt him. I hate things like that. I can't stand hurting feelings of people I care about. But if I didn't tell him that early, the damage would be much bigger. So it was unavoidable. It's strange and fascinating at the same time how feelings can change so quickly just because you get to know someone else...

Oh my gosh, I can't believe that three months have past. Time goes by so fast. I still have contact with him on facebook and we're chatting sometimes. But somehow there is this gape between us. I feel like he's not the same person anymore. Could be my fault. Recently I have to think very often about him. I think about calling him but something holds me back from doing it. What should we talk about? The last time I've heard his voice was so long ago. Not that I miss his voice or miss being with him. There is something though that I miss about him. I can't identify what it is. Now I still don't know what to do. Whether it's the best if I cut my ties with him or start to talk to him again. I'm confused.