Vulnerable

Yesterday or should I say the day before yesterday? Never mind, quite recently on my way back home from work, I realized that I am incapable of having a relationship with someone. When I came to this conclusion it shocked me but at the same time it was pretty obvious. I was just blind to it because I was so busy thinking about myself and my problems due to the loneliness which sometimes overwhelmes me. This loneliness is the reason why I shouldn't date someone. Exactly this desire to have a boyfriend, only to fill the emptiness inside me, makes me weak and vulnerable. The result is that I'm too clinging and can be easily hurt. In this condition I would fall for anyone's lies. So it's better not to come too close to anyone, at least at the moment, until I'm strong enough to have a relationship and stand against all this anguish and pain which might arise when the relationship ends.